Frustration

For some reason, I am particularly stressed today. It must be that Jillian has not slept very well today and I have a ton of unfinished business to do. I wouldn't think it is from the shots she got the other day, they tend to have a more immediate effect. She just seems outright mad today, yelling when she cries, real tears, etc. She would be content if I just kept her in my shirt all day long!
Caden held Jillian for the first time today when just he, Jillian and I were home this morning. I think he focuses better when it's not so noisy and there isn't anyone home to fight with. So, I put Jillian in his arms and he sat there with this delighted look on his face like he knew he had a "real" baby and not just Kara's babydoll. When I took Jillian from him finally, he got a little upset. He was hugging her and giving her kisses. Someone was telling me the other day to enjoy these days, and I do, for the most part. I try to focus on what lies ahead as far as them being teenagers. Right now, I am tripping over them, literally falling over them as they struggle to be near Ron and I every minute of every day- in the same room, sitting with us, playing with us, reading with us. It gets hard when you can't hear yourself think, can't talk to your spouse, can't walk normally because you are taking baby steps to avoid trampling one of them, but I TRY to think a few years from now, they are going to be going here and there and we will be "lame" in their eyes. I suppose they will not even want to admit that WE are their parents, let alone be in the same room with us! So, for now, I have to keep reminding myself to let them be kids and let them love us, without getting irritated that I haven't brushed my teeth or gotten out of my pajamas by noon. The challenge is sticking with that mindset. It is very hard to stay the course when one is singing, one is crying, one is reading a book out loud, one is screaming, and one is tugging on your sleeve, all in the same room! I must do it though......