911

I am hysterically crying and she is turning more blue and Kara is watching the whole thing. Jillian looked like a typical seizure patient, only blue, twitching everywhere with her head going off to her left side, eyes rolled back, and gagging/choking the whole time. There was so much mucous and saliva. It was just dropping out of her mouth. I really thought she was going to die. Kara said "what's wrong, mommy?". I just said "I don't know!" while scrambling for the phone, a decision I made in a second because I was pretty sure, by her color, that Jillian didn't have an airway and I wasn't sure she was going to get one with me in my state. I called 911 while I just kneeled down on the floor next to Jillian watching her. I told them "my daughter is having a seizure and is choking and blue, I'm a nurse! But I'm freaking out!" I gave my address and she transferred me to rescue services. They asked me exactly what she was doing and I think we were just waiting for her to go unconscious, b/c there was no way I could clear those secretions that kept coming. While on the phone with them, she stopped seizing. This all happened in about 3 minutes. I calmed down b/c her color was back. I told the woman I was alright to hang up now, and she let me go. Jillian was breathing very hard and fast through her nostrils, and was still posturing and rigid with her eyes rolled back. I told Kara to get her boots and her coat on and run to the neighbor's as fast as she could and tell her I need her right now. And without hesitation, she did. The police officer got here. I just laid next to Jillybean, telling her I was there. I was afraid to pick her up.
The EMT's got here along with some other support people. Ron said there were 4 or 5 rescue vehicles out front when he got home. We waited here for maybe 10 minutes for a second squad to arrive. I am thinking maybe the other one had supplies on it they needed. The neighbor, Brent's mom Kelly, came back with Kara and stayed with the kids while I rode in the second squad with Jillian to the hospital. She even got Kaylee and Ryan home from school! Kaylee and Ryan, whom I had completely forgotten about, and was only reminded by one of the fine rescue workers when he said "when will the other kids be home from school?". They were so great with me, a riduculously out of her mind, worried mother.
The ride to the hospital was scary b/c she wasn't coming out of the rigidity and posturing phase of it. She looked like a brain damaged kid. I seriously thought she might be like that forever. I thought this b/c it had been a half hour at this point. But, by the time we got to the hospital, she had just started to look AT me instead of THROUGH me, and the posturing and rigidity was gone. They said this was a febrile seizure. She hadn't been sick and didn't get sick afterwards. It's all very confusing to me...........