Rough Week

My week without reinforcement is coming to an end, however, I have an inkling that when Ron gets back, I still won't have any time for ME. Ever since the whole boat thing came up, Ron is having a hard time expressing any interest in anything but "the boat" or in what I have going on with the kids or how hard it has been this week without him. This has made it extremely difficult for me to be interested in what's going on w/ "the boat". He takes care of the kids by himself when I'm at work, so I would think he would understand, but not a question has come up about how MY week has gone or how I was doing yesterday. I understand he's excited and it's fun, but I, too, would like to have some fun. One must remember, too, that all this fun is happening w/ a girl Ron finds attractive. The first time I hear from him on one day, he calls at 7pm and is getting ready to take a shower so he can go "out" w/ this girl. Ummmm, excuse me please......I would like to go out!
The highlight of my week was Jill and Gary coming over last night w/ Ella. I was so happy to see them, actual adults!!! They brought pizza, drinks, dessert, and flowers (that look so nice on my table!). From Ron, I have barely gotten 20 minutes on the phone all week and he has only called before the kids go to bed to say goodnight. No emails, no nice text messages (unless it was to say he was having fun on the boat, which is not what one who is stuck at home w/ five kids needs to hear). There have been no "I miss you's", or "I love you's" because I honestly believe it must be nice to get away from all this. Me, on the other hand, I guess I will just have to WONDER what it would be like, because how in God's name could I ever justify going away for a week, and who in the world in their right mind would watch five kids for that long? I just don't get why we, as mom's, put everything and anything before our own needs/wants. And to make things worse, I had to go and pick a profession where I have to take care of other people!!!!! It gets so old, and once again, I get one day a year, Mother's Day, when everyone acts like they might even appreciate me, and then POOF! It's gone. This Mother's Day will probably be different though b/c Ron has been out of town and everything has been revolving around that. I know, another woe is me!